themorganlea

I know I say it all the time.  There's never a moment when I mention him that I don't express my feelings about him, but the reality is...there are no words that can even begin to paint the picture.  There's always at least one thing in life that reminds you, despite the world, it's worth living.  For some, it's something they do or something they see... But it just so happens for me - it's him. You make me want to live.  I love you, Cody.

My biggest fear is that when I am gone, you won't be able to look back at the things that I enjoy and think fondly of me because all that will be in the way is the disdain you hold for my personal pleasures.  I don't share what I love expecting you to love it like me.  The reasons behind why I love what I do are my own and no one can take that away from me.  I share what I love with you because I want you to remember me.  I want you to see a dragonfly and recall how they made me smile.  I want you to hear my favorite song and remember the joy that it would bring me.  I won't always be there, but the material things of the world will live on l

Being away from you is the most aggravating thing in the world.  I feel ridiculously redundant in saying it to you all the time, but there are no other words that I can express to you how I feel.  It's the limitation of the English language that I never really comprehended before you.  I've always managed with words.  In fact, it was my preferred method of communication.  I've never been the physical type - I don't know how to communicate with my body and it will probably be a while before I really start to learn how.  The point is, when our relationship began, I thought the distance would work to my benefit.  Because of my high-strung, ridic